One Year

One year.
Gone.
So fast.
So slow.
One year.
You're home.
Never alone.
I didn't want to be gone.
One year.
I've missed so much.
First smile I saw.
First laugh was hushed.
Tears well up when I think about
All the things I'll be without.
This isn't about me
Its all about you.
But looking at you now
Its hard to get through.
One year.
Some say I walked away.
But I'm still here...
Crying...
Everyday.
I carried you.
I smiled.
I held you close.
You were my heart.
You are my heart.
Of you, I boast.
"B" you call me
Face full of laughter.
"C" I'll call you
From here on after.
One year.
I could never be mom,
Never be dad.
I could never see you happy
for all the work I'd have.
One year.
The best.
To see you now.
One year.
It hurts.
But I'm so proud.
One year.
I got to see you stumble.
Got to see you run.
Throw you up in the sky.
Jabber for fun.
One year.
You change everyday.
You hum and laugh,
Dance and play.
"ELMO!" you point
At everything.
"Uncle!" you say
Right before you scream.
"Ikum" your brother
You love so much.
"Gypy" the dog
You love to touch.
One year.
What gets me most of all you say
"Dada". Hug him everyday.
And when you look back at me,
Remember I wanted you to be
Everything I couldn't provide for you.
Please don't get mad
I can't live there too.
But I'll always be here...
I love you.