If It Wasn't For Them

Today is the day you're brother's adoption is official.
I can't help but think about the day I found out yours was.
I didn't realize it would hurt so much to see everyone so happy.
Trust me baby, I was happy for your mom and dad, and for you.
But it just hit me that you were no longer mine.
No longer mine.
Thats a painful thought.
I know that your DNA is my DNA.
I know that your blood is my blood.
I know that I carried you for 9 months.
I loved you.
I wrote to you.
I read to you.
Prayed with you.
Played with you.
I don't really know why the adoption hearing was so hard for me.
But I know it was the right thing.
You're with your family.
They belong to you and you to them.
You will of course, always be, my baby...
Even though you're no longer with me,
There is no denying you were here.
My heart pumps the same blood that runs through your veins.
You always have me with you.
In your heart.
In your soul.

The smile on your face in all your pictures on that adoption day
Brings happiness to my heart.
Yes, that was the day everything became "official"
So of course, it was a hard day for me.
But that was the day that you became a Webb.
God blessed you with a family that can give you everything I can't.
On that day, He made it where no one could take the gift of your life away from their hands.
And because of that...you can't be taken from my hands.
My son, we are truly blessed to have the kind of adoption we do.
Thank your Mom and Dad.
If it wasn't for them...